rock of ages, your will be done.

i have been through, quite possibly, the craziest week of my life. between nursing and the other responsibilities of life i have hardly had a spare second. i'm alright though. i have realized that in the midst of my busyness i rely all the more on my Savior. it's a great thing. falling more in love with the Creator of the universe is a pretty exciting thing and i love seeing the fruit of it in my life. i owe anything good about me to my Maker and to the Spirit that He made come alive in me when i placed my faith in Him.

i really want His will to be done in my life. it's a daily fight against my flesh and the lies of Satan, but by His power i have righteous discernment. i write this mainly so i can look back on days when i feel defeated and know that the victory has already been won. my God is an amazing God and i could never imagine or want life without knowing Him.

Is there someone you can call when you stumble and fall?

i am not alone. this is something that every christian should know; but seeing as it has been a struggle in my own life, i am sure that i am not the only one. lately God has become even more real in my life. i have seen the evidence of Him changing my heart, the way i receive His love, and the way i love others... it blows my mind.

it is incredible how God provides in every aspect of my life. it is unfathomable the way He loves me. i am learning to stand, actually fall to my knees, in awe of His majesty. i have never been more humbled by His love and i rejoice in the fact that He is breaking down my sinfulness and opening my eyes to His truth probably in more ways than i am even capable of realizing all at once.

God is with me every day, walking alongside me, and guiding my way when i let Him. this adventure He is taking me on is far better than any plan i have ever imagined or fantasized about. it rocks. and HE is there to catch me when i stumble and fall to make my path straight again. surrender. best decision ever.

Come Awake, Come Awake.

Jesus is life. if you disagree with that truth i would love to talk about it with you. in fact talking about Jesus is something i am asking God to give me the desire to do more of. asking God to help me talk about God may confuse you as well. but authority has to stop somewhere and it does with the Uncreated One. you see, God is and always has been. He has no origin like this earth or ourselves and because of that He is the ultimate authority. He is ABLE to do whatever He wants, He holds all the power of the world He made in His hands. woah.

if you randomly opened a Bible chances are you would not have to read to far to find a recording of something impossible that God has done. creation, the flood, the plagues, the birth of Jesus from a virgin... old and new testament are filled with impossible circumstances and occasions that occurred because the Author of all of it can do INFINITELY more than our minds are capable of comprehending. man i serve an amazing, awesome, and powerful God!

He is in control. something i do believe but i don't always apply in my life. i like to be in control, know the details, and avoid failure as much as possible. until this weekend i never knew the impact that had on my relationship with God. coming to the realization was not something i rejoiced in knowing either... at first. with me taking and demanding control in my life i was belittling the power of God to do big things through me. i don't want that life anymore. losing control has actually been freeing. i know that everyday i am going to have to wake up and before my feet hit the floor give my day over to God. i'm excited about it though. i realized that me being in control also makes for a safe, boring life and that is the farthest thing from my desire. God knows that and i know the adventure He has in store will be more than i could have ever imagined.

i finally have my 3 m's in the correct order. i have given control to God to be my Master. right now radford university is my mission and God will reveal the next in due time. as for a mate... i want more time with my number One and to fall more deeply and passionately in love with my Redeemer before He brings me my number two if that's His will :)

there are not words to describe how awesome my God is! i love it when He wakes me up!